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Anonymous03/14/26, 09:18No.34339208I wish i was low inhibited psychopath who didnt have anxiety
the worst ppl u know have the best lives i wanna be like them all retard and free and calm
for 12 hours i have been anxious irritated hacing that pit in stomach feeling
sometime i get so nervous my hands shake for no reason im so scared
i wanna have no shame nor guilt
this whale is seen hitting a baby
i can even seem to know how to even handle a normal convo let alone hit someone
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Anon03/14/26, 09:20No.34339212
>i cant* even seem to know
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Anon03/14/26, 10:59No.34339378
Imagine OP, that you have this peculiar problem your whole life, that every time you sit down in a quiet room, you feel visceral aching in your chest. Not physically but it's there, not anxiety but something else, something hollow. Chilling and biting like a cold wind in your entire organism. And that every time you sit down it rushes your entire system until your brain feels like cotton. And it's like that every second of every minute of every day, cold and sharp howling emptiness within. Life feeling like a permanent foggy blizzard where you know if you stop moving for even a step you freeze to death. So you keep moving keep moving keep moving keep moving and you can't be still, neither in your mind or body. Everything is fogged emotionally, your own emotions, the perception of detecting emotions in others too. People around you don't feel like people, more like blurry objects in a distance. You can see them clearly with your eyes, but your mind's eye doesn't see them, just objects. As far as your mind is concerned you're the only person alive, the only "human". Everyone else is just some 'thing'.And no matter how good you get at manipulating these things these other "people" no matter how effective you are at using them to satisfy your base pleasures like sex, or want for money, no matter what you never see them in ways that count, in mind and heart. And they never see you, either. And the disgusting twist is you don't care, you can't care, because that would imply standing still mentally. And you can't do that because that endless freezing void will catch you and flush your entire mind and body with sharp pain. So you keep. Fucking. Moving. Endlessly, tirelessly, until you are dead of premature age or drug induced OD or you are killed.That's Psychopathy OP. You really don't want to wish for that.
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Anon03/14/26, 11:08No.34339389
Feeling is one thing, it sound paradoxical but chances are our emotions are not ours but channeled to us via genuinely emotional peopleI guess, for exercise, imagine the worst or edgiest situations you can and ask yourself if youre stimulated in any way by it or not,moral compass doesn't count
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Anon03/14/26, 14:20No.34339751
I feel you OP
I’m a nervous wreck who gets called out and questioned for everything I do. I feel like I have to prepare justifications and excuses just for existing to the point where doing anything takes too much mental effort and preparation to be worth doing, and no matter how hard I try to just mind my own business and make sure my actions only affect me, everything I do is taken the wrong way and people feel the need to call me out.I can’t carry out instructions at all because I know somehow I’ll go about it differently than how the person imagined in their head, so I just do shit wrong on purpose just to skip to the part where they berate me and do it themselves so I can go about my day.Interacting with people feels like a humiliation ritual. Everyone seems to just assume the worst of me from the get-go so they already decided that I’m wrong before I even get a chance to act.This fat nigger was in front of me on an escalator and just stood at the bottom blocking me and I just didn’t tell them to move to let me off even though I knew there were other people coming down behind me. So I just stood there and got bitched at because that was honestly more preferable than trying to engage and risk getting into an argument because they can’t just be bothered to accommodate me the one time I impose myself on someone.People go out of their way to be a detriment to those around them while everyone just ignores it while being held up because of it.
But I get glared at because god forbid I made the cashier have to activate the card reader again because I typed a number of my PIN incorrectly and pushed “cancel” instead of “backspace” in a panic.
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Anon03/14/26, 14:47No.34339789
I feel exactly the same way. A guy at work is the most selfish, immature, irresponsible, lazy moron with zero self awareness that I know. He’s infinitely more happy than I am. Ignorance is bliss.