I‘ve hated being a woman ever since I started going through puberty. I hate other women too. I think that women are all that is wrong with humanity and they never should have gotten any rights or special treatment. However, unlike what the trans movement leads people to believe, I can never become a real man. I don’t have the genes a man has. At best I am a retarded, mentally ill, physically disabled version of a man. Not to mention being forced to perform the only method of reaching female sexual satisfaction, the humiliation ritual called penetrative sex.
I tried my best in life to reach the highest level I could given my circumstances. Studied hard, got a job abroad (unfortunately my workspace is plagued by women although it‘s STEM research), worked out to reach even a fraction of a man‘s natural power. With all of that effort, maybe I‘ve reached the level of a man lacking all ambition in life, minus a functional penis and inability to become pregnant. After a while, I realised that my life is as worth as a cow in a farm and I stopped seeing the point in continuing to work hard.
I have family I care about, I even think I would make a good mother, but that’s all my life can realistically amount to. Maybe I‘m not seeing some worth others can see. I don’t take other women’s opinions seriously, and men can only mention the worth of women in terms of breeding, childcare, taking care of men‘s needs. There is nothing glorious about being a female, but maybe there is a way to lobotomise myself into enjoying this pathetic life so that I don’t traumatise my family and friends by shooting my brains off.
Part of me expects you to make fun of me and push me towards ending it, but maybe we can have some sincere thoughts. This topic is not something I can discuss with many people without being brushed off as insane.