>Go through horrendous break up
>Lose my mind and give up on everything
>Experience failure after crushing failure in my career due to random chance/things completely out of my control
>Become an alcoholic
>Get high every single day, all day
>Take benzos to fall asleep, abuse them
>Abuse painkillers
>Have major surgery
>Become fat
>Stop bathing and caring completely
And yet throughout all that I was able to (apathetically) go through the motions and fuck women left and right and had a string of girlfriends, whereas now:
>Quit weed, benzos, alcohol and all narcotics cold turkey (it was absolute hell)
>Lose 50lbs and am down to 13% bf
>Discover dicipline in my career and am getting better each and every day
>Learning foreign languages, latin
>Almost no social media or aimless internet browsing
>Skincare routine, new haircut (before I used to cut my hair myself)
>Start dressing well again, get my clothes tailored to fit right
>Exercise every day
>No more junk food not even processed food
>Clean and decorate my house with nice vintage furniture and lamps
>Intermittent fasting, dream diary, journaling
>Seeing a psychologist
And yet now that I am possibly the most physically attractive and mentally sound I have ever been I cannot get a date to save my life.
I feel like I have lost something, something crucial.
Has anyone gone through something similar before?
The obvious answer is that I have become more serious and that I used to attract people with my insouscience, but that feels like an incomplete analysis.
I really don't know.