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Anonymous06/22/25, 14:10No.33258520Explanation For My Wildly Changing Moods
I am curious if there is any sort of diagnosis (not necessarily medical just cannot think of a better word at the moment) suited for the way my mind has been working both for and against me the last half year or so
When my mind is working normally, as it is right now, I feel a strong desire to do things.
I view these things, even if i have put them off because of when my mind doesn't work, as opportunities to "do" more. To just be "active", and "achieve something". Really, they're just hobbies so Im just describing personal enjoyment.
I want to do them, do them, think of what's next or even what new things I could try
I just view things positively, proactively, etc.
When my mind doesn't work I basically feel the complete opposite. I do not want to do anything, or rather, feel no desire to do anything. In other words, I feel neutral, not negative. I don't engage in hobbies, I get bored quickly, I have no sense of wanting to achieve anything, and even doing small tasks feels insurmountable
It is as if wanting to do the task is sort of "locking in" a segment of time I will need to dedicate to it, time that I cant get back, one step closer to not having free time again (work but i dont dislike my job) until im home the next day
Nothing matters, feel rather cynical, etc.
These phases last about 3-4 weeks each. There is no discernible trigger. I have a cycle of feeling good, doing things, and being really proactive. And feeling bad, doing nothing - literally nothing with my time, and viewing trying as a negative thing
Sorry if I explained this poorly, feel free to ask questions if you care enough. For context when i researched this before, Bipolar II came up, seems similar but not exact, and Im not gonna self diagnose and make excuses
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Anon06/22/25, 19:47No.33259766
sounds kind of like type 1 bipolar disorder. mania is fundamentally a high energy phase, depression is a low energy phase. it's possible you have a relatively mild and liveable flavor of bipolar. enjoy the ride.
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Anon06/23/25, 06:45No.33262197
You are bipolar.I'm guessing you are younger. It is in your genes but needs a trigger to activate. There is a kindling event that happens sometimes in your teens to early 20s that triggers a full blown episode.Usually a serious life crisis or drugs.Get on top of it now. If you are fairly well grounded and not a moron, you can figure it out with cognitive behavioral therapy and minimal medications.If you just ignore it, each repeat episode starts destroying your brain. Then you end up homeless or in and out of hospitals.I was diagnosed at 22, medication free for 16 years. 40 now and live a pretty normal life but still have some cycling.
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Anon06/23/25, 15:13No.33263825
Either way I’d like some more opinions / ways of dealing with this
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Anon06/23/25, 15:14No.33263832
Also in case it isn’t clear I want to state that it seriously feels like my entire mind switches when this thing happens
Just feels like I’ve woken up and my perception on everything 180s, as if I got a new brain and conscious
It’s so weird
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Anon06/24/25, 01:46No.33265769
bump
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Anon06/24/25, 05:30No.33266372
How old are you?If you are young you will find out when you end up in a hospital when one your moods gets too extreme. If not, you probably don't have a problem or you have cyclothymia.That you are already considering this a problem and thinking it over is an indication that you are not overthinking things.You see this a potential big problem in the future and are trying to figure it out.Probably best to talk to a doctor before you find out the hard way.Don't get any pills, just try to figure out what is wrong.
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Anon06/24/25, 05:55No.33266431
Sounds like my adhd desu. I thought I had bipolar because I would get so hyperhypo lol.