Anon03/13/26, 16:14No.42104413
>SO YOUNG MEN ARE ACTUALLY BEING MISLED BY BEING TAUGHT BY THEIR MOTHERS TO RESPECT THESE GOOD-FOR-NOTHING WHORES AND TO 'SAVE YOURSELF FOR MARRIAGE'.
I feel this. I waited too long to find a good woman and realize I just spent years in misery for it.>I had a sincere belief that God would see my sacrifices and reward me with a loyal woman when the time was right. I was wrong. Now I am alone and my best years were spent as a monk with nothing to show for it.
I focused on the spiritual, shunning the things of this world, and especially material wealth. Now I am penniless, anxious about bills, and look like a fool compared to those around me. Even if God rewarded me with a wife, how could I support her?
>I have done many fasts. Prolonged water fasts. Some of them lasting 20+ days. I believed it would strengthen me spiritually, and heal my illnesses. All it did was lead to me carrying a body of skin and bones, and wrecked my health even more.But you must understand anon. This faith is all I know. And if I admit it has misled me -- then I have nothing. Nothing but regrets, failures, and knowledge of how delusional and weak I am. This makes the suffering unbearable. I think often about ending it, but I carry hope still.