Anon12/01/25, 02:07No.41588352
One night I snapped and poured out all of my pent up feelings and things I held back all my life since I was a child and instead of the usual repetitive prayers, I talked to him like an actual person, yelled, screamed, cried like a baby at him (even cussed at times). I must've looked like a crazy person in a room alone but I didn't care because I was crashing out and asked him that "I knew what the world thinks of me, what my parents think, people think, but what about you God?" I went to sleep and had the most beautiful dream.. actually not a dream because it actually did not feel like a dream. Felt too real to deny, I'd feel like I'm lying to you if I said it felt like a dream because it didn't. It was basically events I had shared with Jesus and I had spent years with him. Summed up shortly what I got from the experience, everything and much more that I had ever, ever deeply desired from the world and people and kept locked up in my heart since I was a child was actually me trying to seek God himself. He was so nice to me, he was my best friend and he was so kind and gentle. I learned that he really loved me, that I was really loved and that also made me realize that I don't think I was ever really loved at all until he showed me who he was. When I woke up, it was like I had just been kissed by an angel. I had slept for a full 8 hours and my entire life mind you I have rarely, RARELY gone an entire nights sleep like that. usually I wake up like 2-3 times a night. but when I woke I felt fully rested.I'm still learning how to hear his voice too, but please have hope! I get really down and lonely too but the moment I decided to stop listening to people who do nothing but try to keep your spirits down and give myself a chance to be happy, the world felt like it started to open up. I think every day is a chance he can show how much he loves you. I want to give him a chance too to express his love to me so I asked and received