Anon05/11/26, 22:25No.35029643
Anyway your issue is toally in your mind. You project your self hate for being socially and romantically inept on your body, even to the point of going through weird surgeries. Going that far doesnt validate your projection, it just gives it a deeper tone. Your body is a generic average 5. It could look better after some physical training of your choice, but anyway it is not your issue. It is in your mind. I dont know you, I dont know if you are in the spectrum, or just low iq, maybe you drag some heavy trauma, or hit your head on the concret when you were two (just like me), but you are definitely a non social person. You, like many here, lack the basic skills and wiring to mingle in social circles. Not to say to manage a romantic relationship. You can not handle emotions. You are marked in all social circles as problematic/unstable/stupid/small change person.
Stop trying.
You can not be that person. It is hurting you. You are not ready to fully function in society at that level.
Retreat.
Dont burn bridges with everything. Just collect yourself.
Not to rot away, but to function in your new, safe territory. Then grow. Slowly build up from scratch. Any progress will be gigantic, you know anything will be better than keep on trying to be who you are not.
On your body: stop winning and do squats, bicycle, wtv.
Also will you post anus, please?