Recently I have been thinking about whether "reckless" street driving or speeding down country lanes has a correlation with mental health. I am still fairly new to driving at 25 in the shithole that is the UK, but I have recently ran into a rutt mentally and socially and have been getting really dangerous compulsions on the road. I never had them before, but ever since I have ran into a spat of lonliness induced anxiety in recent months and longing for past failed relationships I have been more drawn to speeding and pushing how fast I can go without needing to slow down. Shifting to 5th in a 30 zone and then rev blipping down to 3rd or 2nd on junctions or corners for instance, or going 60 in a country lane. I have been questioning myself internally why I would consider such things, but when thr negative thoughts start creeping back into mind I just seem to default to:
>fuck it, who cares
until my headspace clears up again and I settle down. It's really intrusive though, not in a aggresive way like channeling frustration but more so like an apathetic devil may care sort of way.
As a result I have been wondering whether this sort of experience is true for other drivers who do actually speed and cruise on public roads. A member of my family used to street cruise a ton when he was young, and while he has never admitted to it as such being the cause, he had a very rough youth and had a girlfriend who was constanly on verge of killing herself. When I used to go to college a lot of other students would brag about or show dashcam chase videos like the Getaway in Stockholm series, but the few who actually had a legit investment in cruising beyond cool factor were from broken homes or suffering with drugs.