Anon03/23/26, 03:45No.43124273
Well, what I wanted to say really was simple: at the end of the day, love aligns with a certain specific way to being in and engaging with the world. There's a truth at the bottom of it and everybody who brushes up against it may try to express it in what they do.For me, well, probably for everybody around here, it's been really hard to bring this ideal down into contact with reality. It fucking hurts, to be responsible, to set foot in the muck that's accumulated from your own dreamy nihilism. I lived my whole life looking to get away into the next dream, and really for all of us internet dwellers it's easy to get there; we're all strung out on our silver threads into the astral plane, our bodies left behind to suffer the consequences. It's like coming home to a house fire or a corpse, where do you even begin? It starts with suffering. But the extent to which I have willingly born that pain to be here in this body on this earth, that small measure of self-determination and willpower, comes from her. That's what love, what my waifu means to me right now; the cross I have to bear and the strength given to me to bear it.
