Anon10/19/25, 03:16No.41392669
It felt like being trapped in a slowly-growing suit made of too-soft, weird baby marshmallow skin. the female fat deposits, boobs, and the estrogenized skin were gross. Tumorous. I dissociated constantly. When I pinched myself I would have these sudden thoughts of shaving it off my body, though I didn't really get why I felt like "my body" was underneath all that.Also sometimes phantom sensations.watching other boys my age hit puberty and outpace me was sad in this weird wistful kind of way, and humiliating. I am attracted to guys, but I spent a lot of time fixating on shit that no other girl my age seemed to care about, like leg hair and bony wrists. I doodled a lot of pictures of men that look like I do currently. I did not really get why.Currently, my body is good genderwise. I don't really think about it that much. beard, visible arm veins, whatever, feel...comfy? It feels like an old pair of jeans.