Anon05/09/26, 21:37No.7937562
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What I've figured out so far:
>being bad at drawing is more frustrating than the act of drawing
This is probably why I keep coming back to drawing even when drawing is mostly frustrating.
At this point, it's not about "enjoying drawing", it's simply about hating my incompetence in drawing. Which brings up another point:
>disliking the friction of incompetence is not the same as disliking the medium itself
Think about it.
Why bother drawing?
If all I wanted was a good end result, why the fuck would I waste my time learning how to draw when I could learn how to use AI instead? An AI can already shit out thousands of drawings better than what I could ever do, so why the fuck don't I just do that?But that's like saying, "why don't I just have Tyrone fuck my wife and I take care of his baby?" It's not my baby, I don't give a shit about that disgusting baby, it's not mine. I want the baby produced by MY semen. I want it to come from inside of me, not from someone else.This is why I named my sketchbook: NATAL.
It's symbolic of the baby that I am producing.
I essentially fuck my sketchbook everyday, fill it with my semen, and nurture the womb until my fully deformed fetal spawn slips from the pages within.
That is why I draw. That's why I can't delegate it to a fucking machine. That's why I can't let Tyrone fuck my wife. It's not about the final result, it's about having sex with art itself and becoming one with creation.So you ask, "why do I even want to draw?"
Well, the answer is simple:
>because I don't want Tyrone to fuck my wife.
