An amount of disgust and HATE that i never felt before. The amount of sadistic fantasies that i have developped. I never EVER felt this raw revulsion towards something that i have made.
This is my first character model in blender and i have no words to describe how much i want to hurt it.
I want to create and AI for this body, give it emotions just to know that it suffers. I want to torment it, i want to trap it in a house of psychological horror. Just imagining the AI's response to pain, it simulating human emotions of despair and sadness brings me great satisfaction.
I want to punish what my hands have made, i previously made bad art but this is different. I created something that i want to exist just for the purpose of it suffering eternally. I want every artifical fiber of this rot to fry and be reseted to suffer again and again with no comfort and no body to relate to. I want it to know that it's suffering, i want the artifical system to scream in agony with each tearing stimulation on it's vertices.
Anyways, i'll probably adjust some proportions and watch tutorials uwu